I can’t rationalize what I want.
I can’t explain the things inside.
All I know is that I’m hurting.
And the frustration hasn’t died.
I’ve tried and so I’ve failed.
And now I feel so alone.
I’m broken and abandoned.
I can’t do this on my own.
Frustrated and so tired.
I can’t simply abandon my pain.
All my efforts have failed,
But does that make them in vain?
I don’t want to be controlled,
By things I used to control.
But why do I feel so empty,
When I’m supposed to be whole?
I feel like somethings missing,
But I’ve gone through what could be,
And it doesn’t seem like anything is.
Maybe I’m just a tad blind and can’t see.
Maybe I just keep slipping up.
And I need to get back to You.
Maybe I’m farther than I thought.
And I’m not sure what to do…