Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever feel the same as before.
Other times I wonder if I really want to feel that way again.
And sometimes I just don’t care at all about the way things are.
I’ve tried so hard to get rid of these things that make me sore.
I’ve fought so much and now I’m just waiting for His “when.”
And I’ve wondered so often if I’ve finally gone too far…
So I’ll admit it,
It’s nothing new,
You should know.
You placed it inside.
You told it to grow.
And I admit it,
What you’ve made.
You know it’s true,
It’s just waiting to show.
You know I’ve lied,
And you won’t let go.
Sometimes I wonder why someone would ever love me.
Other times I need to know there is a chance someone could care.
And the rest of the time I’m just trying to get by without thinking at all.
I’ve expressed all my doubts thus creating my own desperate sea.
I’ve swallowed all the waves just trying to prove I won’t scare.
And I’ve noticed all that proves is I’m so afraid to fall.
I’ll admit it,
I’ve been bent.
I’m out of shape,
And I can’t stand.
My hearts been broken,
And I’m so sore.
And I’ll admit it,
My time is spent.
I’ve lost my escape,
So I try to understand.
Every word He’s ever spoken…
How am I worth more?